i'm so sorry! :( i feel sucky kay. so so sorry.
i just thought that no one cared for me.
it seems like everytime i make a friend, everthing will eventually fall apart. like this.
i know you have your problems and that i don't wanna interfere.
so i'm really really sorry that you had to go true all this because of me. really.

and because of thise morning, i wasn't at the right to say it.
but it just blurted out. she didn't even believe it cos i told her later on saying that you were sick.
i didn't know that it would hurt you or anything cause it was meant to be a joke.
she didn't even believe it. okay?

and i still don't understand.
acting differently? as in, how? i was acting the same way i had always been since the starting of the school year. that's from my point of view.
and there, i thought you were the one acting differently.
i thought you were the one ignoring me. i thought that you didn't need me as your friend anymore, just jess and saira. i felt neglected. like you and the others are rejecting me.
and the class too. no one talked to me since i came back from a day-off 2 days before exams. so then, i had mixed feelings inside of me. i was thinking about just being my old self. or changing my character to a brand new, well-improved dayana. or just transfer out. i almost transferred out when i was in the office after lit exam. i still have the paper of information with me. and i don't know if i should fill it in or not. because, frankly speaking, i dont want to leave all these behind. all the friendship/bonds. but another side of me thinks that i wont go far in this school and to just transfer out. because of all the bad impression people have on me.
but that's another thing.

so, i'm asking you.
i don't want our friendship to end.
and if i have ever hurt you in anyway, i'm truly really sorry.